Becoming

She was but a speck in the universe. Smaller than a gain of sand , older than time as

she floated in the cosmic sea, adrift in the darkness, yet attuned to the harmonic

vibrations of soft quiet sounds. She was not asleep and yet she might have appeared

to be so, lazily, effortlessly, peacefully, lovingly, moving as a feather on a breeze.

Occasionally she would encounter a ripple in the streams of the current she flowed

in but that was not a disturbance just a soft sort of rocking motion that came and

went as She passed through always on course yet never having one.

Once or twice She was sent flying as a major shift of energy crashed through space

in forms of solid mass or more disturbing a glut of energy resulting from the build

up of emotions that had gathered up so as to build and climb until it became a

crescendo of sounds that burst forth spreading out in sparks of shrill or deep dense

pulsing throbs akin to a moan.

Hers was a happy life, devoid of a committed shape, ah, so freedom looks like this,

no wants nor needs, no requirements of a being, be it a sentient one such as a planet,

star, humanoid, animal, water, etc.

She thought, Yes even in this form patterns appeared in her awareness. Maybe not

thoughts per se yet certainly there was a perception of her surroundings however

low and humming they were. She drifted in this way for millennia, complete in her

self and not wanting for more. On occasion she encountered other energies like hers

who floated in the endless sea of time and space, some more aware, some less so but

the commonality they shared was satisfaction. Why is this enough of a life, not

needing more to stimulate her and send her in search of a more expansive

environment to engage in, Peace, just that one feeling that needs nothing else, why

invite something more that will enviably bring pain, confusion and regret into ones

sphere, for what purpose when this is bliss already, Why indeed.

This is our journey from conception through the evolution in the womb to becoming

a being in a mass of cells structured to create a life form independent of its sheltered

existence. We chose to leave the safety of the cosmic flow to experience life on a

dense, yet intriguing place, in a form that in flawed and fragile, to become something

else which has infinite possibilities to explore and evolve, now we have done it, was

this a wise decision?

Remember this when life is challenging and woes and sorrows beset us…..we have

chosen this adventure and we have the Grace to make choices with help in many

forms to assist us. We have joys and peace and respites as well.